Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Missing You

Dear Eden,

I printed up a copy of your picture today.

It's a little overcast and the house is really quiet, the big kids are gone and the little one is taking a nap.

I wish I could curl up on the couch and nurse you and nibble on your fingers and toes. Smile at you. You'd be playing right along by now...

I miss all the things we never got to do. I miss memories we never made.

But I still smile almost everyday because I know I'll not only see you again, but that your life served a great purpose.

I know you don't read my blog, :D , but I just wanted to tell you today how much you are missed and how much I love you...and how you have impacted me as a person.

~Mommy

3 comments:

Hattie said...

So cute Alexis :) I love it.

Nicky said...

I miss her, too. Especially in moments when life doesn't seem particularly fair...but even in the good moments, I still wish I could see her eating the farmers' market samples in that weird looking teether thing (I would get out of bed early on a Tuesday just for that), and listen to you lament about how she's potentially the last baby you'll nurse and how that's bitter sweet (remember the Baby Blues comic you sent me when Emily was about this age?)...*sigh*

Do you ever pretend things have actually happened and then try to convince yourself they are just as good as real memories? I do. =/

Cassi said...

"get out of bed early on Tuesday's" ... yes - bittersweet laughter... but me too Nicky ... me too...

I don't know much about God's plans and why He answered these many requests with a no... but I do know that I will never be the same person for knowing sweet baby Eden... and that's a good thing.