Monday, July 02, 2007

Monday Musings

I have written, rewritten, erased, started over again, this blog about 4 times already. My thoughts are so jumbled.

I start out telling of my struggles with the constant everyday of carrying Eden, I talk about feeling her first kick during her ultrasound, I start to answer questions I've been asked a lot lately... but it all sounds so flat.

The reality is, this is getting really hard. Aside from everything else, I am getting really pregnant. I am exhausted and have a hard time even finishing up my daily chores. Folding the laundry, putting it away, doing the dishes, and vacuuming puts me out for a day and a half... lets not forget it's summer and all three kids need a mommy. Also included in the 6 month pregnant package are some pretty emotional days. Fighting to install a water filter for two days reduced me to tears more than once.

It's also a long journey. I wish I could know, right now, that everything was going to be okay. That I was bringing my baby home in October and we'd all live happily ever after. But that is not my path... I don't get to sprint. It's a marathon.

My husband is having a hard time not knowing how to be the Protector of his family and how to struggle through his own emotions. He needs your prayers right now, he needs the strength of all of you to help hold him up.

4 comments:

Dawn said...

Alexis and family,
I wish that I could give you the answers that we all want to here. I am praying for your family. When you get down just remember that we are all here with you. Stay strong, I know you don't realize it, but you are doing excellent with all this. Everything will work out, Eden WILL be healed by God, Never doubt that. You asked as did all of us. Beleive is happen. I do. I love you Dawn

La familia Sobaje said...

I am praying for you guys as well!

Kristin said...

Hang in there, Tiger. Remember God chose you to be Eden's mom because he knew you had the faith, perseverence, and heart to follow His heart. Our family sends our love to you and yours.

Anonymous said...

Since Nicky told me Eden's name and what the tests predicted, I have been remembering you,little Eden and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I am at a loss for words...reading your postings lends me to believe you are a powerhouse of faith with many power charges from those close to you and afar upholding you in their daily prayers. continue to enjoy each day you have with Eden...celebrate them...believe and bathe in God's peace knowing he will give you no unlovely gift.To everything there is a season... Love, deb