Thursday, June 21, 2007

First instinct and words of faith

I replay a lot of the stuff that happened at that first ultrasound. I replay what was said to me. The look on my friend's face as she sat and listened. The tone of voice that the technician used. The smells... all of it. But just recently I've been remembering that first split second after she told me. My first and immediate reaction that hadn't heard figures or facts yet, the moment just a fraction of a moment before my head started swimming...

What I thought in that moment was "Well, I guess God will have to fix it. "( I didn't yet know she was a she.)

This moment comforts me. It was here that my faith spilled out, not yet crowded by logic or emotion. Just faith. I wish I could say it was the whispered voice of God reassuring me, but of that I'm not sure.

I thank everyone who is following this journey. Every prayer is felt here...


Dawn said...

1 John 5:14-15 (New International Version)
New International Version (NIV)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society

14This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

Love you Dawn

Dawn said...

Then Jesus answered and said to her, "O woman, great is your faith! Let it be to you as you desire." And her daughter was healed from that very hour. (Matthew 15:28)

Just another one of His many promise. With constant prayers and thoughts for you and yours. Love Dawn

Justin said...

I just wanted to say "hi" and hang in there, this is Jess by the way, I have to use my husbands e-mail to log in. I'm too lazy to get my own. Call me anytime, I'm at home now for the summer, most of the time in the morning. Love.

Cassi said...

I want you to know that it was an extreme honor for me to have been with you on that day. It was also the first day that you found out that it was a girl, felt her first kick and heard her heartbeat for the first time. I was overjoyed to be able to experience that with you as well as the rest of the journey. Much love to you, your husband and your four wonderful children... Cassi