Sunday, August 02, 2009

Love Letter

It starts so simply...and then God in his abundance, finishes it so amazingly!

About two months after Eden's initial diagnosis, well into my journey, I was introduced to another mother destined to have to make the same types of decisions for her ill, not yet born, son.

There is something special about sharing with another member of our exclusive club. We share the lows, the highs, the good and the very honest and ugly parts. We understand what it is to rail at and into the arms of God. We hold each other together while still a mess ourselves. It is a beautiful thing really. Beautiful in it's raw emotion.

We cemented a bond that is beyond this life, which is wonderful considering we are separated by an entire country and had only met online, introduced by one of our dear friends that I, again, had only met online.

For months and months we have shared each step of our shared path, stopping along the way to get down in the dirt with the other...or to hold out a hand to help the other up. Sharing tea, and tears, and laughter...all through a little box on the desk.

In my dreams I wondered if we would ever meet this side of heaven. I doubted we would, but I hoped.

And then all of a sudden it was happening! A gift from God, given through a wonderful friend and I was on a plane to surprise this dear woman with whom I had shared so much. And for 4 days I sat in kitchens and living rooms on the other side of the continent and learned what it meant to love Canada with my whole heart.

I laughed in grocery stores and cried for the joy of new-but-not-really friends.

So, once again, God gives me a beautiful gift out of one of my darkest hours. It is so amazing to be loved so fully by the creator of the heavens and the earth.


Anonymous said...

(sniffle, wiping teary cheeks) Right back at you my friend. Completely and totally.

love jennie

Anonymous said...

<3 to you, my lovely Californian. :)


Tracey said...

So glad you got to meet your friend! Just found your blog through CSAHM and immediately had to check it out.

You see, in August of 1997, through an ultrasound at 18 weeks gestation, we found out that the baby we were expecting had anencephaly. She was stillborn at 33 weeks and we named her Angel Marie. God placed so many amazing people in our lives to support us and we continue to look back and thank Him for His grace.

How great is the hope we have that one day we will see her in heaven. It somehow makes the thought of going there even sweeter!

Thanks for sharing your story!