Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Another Birthday

I can't help but wonder when I will know what to expect. Last year was sad but still a celebration of the sweet girl who changed our world...today was nothing but raw and painful. I spent the better part of today lost and terrified of the heaviness that washed over me. I felt little comfort from my loving God who opened up the sky to weep with me.

My older children shook with sobs that came from so deep they gladly went to bed an hour early.

It was just heavy and hard.

She never stops being gone. She's never coming back.

While I take great comfort in knowing each year brings us closer to reunion, it also takes us further from hello.

I miss my little girl so much.


Rebekah said...

I know you don't know me, but I found your blog through a link on another website, benotafraid.net, I think the name is. Anyway, I pray that God continues to comfort, strengthen, and encourage you in your loss.
I wanted to let you know that my sister-in-law just had a baby girl, Adelle Marie, on Oct. 12, 2009, and with anencephaly and the same going home day as Eden, October 15th. My family was able to enjoy 59 hours with Adelle, and we had a good funeral/memorial service on Saturday. It's been amazing to see how the body of Christ has been working together to pray for and support all of us at this time.
This most recent post of yours that I'm commenting on is a reminder to me to be in prayer for my sister and brother-in-law not just at this time, but in the years to come, and they continue to miss Adelle. My sister-in-law's blog is www.ouryoungfam.com. Thank you for your honest posts, and I pray God's richest blessings on you and your family.
Becky Crouse

Krista said...

Oh my sweet friend... I cry with you...

Anonymous said...

It is very interesting for me to read that post. Thanx for it. I like such themes and everything that is connected to them. I definitely want to read a bit more soon.

Krista said...

My heart is heavy and sad for you, Alexis, with all the remembering and longing. Morning will come, but let yourselves be here too.

love from KW,